Friday, 6 September 2013
Every Day with Jesus - saying the Jesus Prayer 4
Again noticed a change in the way I prayed the prayer today. The way I said the words seemed to change at some point as I seemed to get more into them in some way. It's like skating on ice one moment and falling through into the water the next!
However sometimes I guess prayer is sometimes just the sheer determination to go on and say the prayer, repeatedly coming back to the words every time I am distracted. It's a kind of offering, a sacrifice, to God.
A thought did occur to me in the first 100. It suggested that this was a waste of my time, spending over 35 minutes saying the same words over and over again. And for a short period I did start to calculate how it all added up. 30 mins a day, 7 days a week, 52 weeks of the year! But I managed to drag myself back to the prayer and tell myself that trying to focus on Jesus was and is never a waste of time.